Monday, April 13, 2009

Alone

Well, now is the night before my SS and Bio test tmr. Yeah, I should be studying. And yes, I should have studied a little over the weekend. But... I tried my best. And if it's not enough I don't care. Cos yeah, I gave my best.

Well, I'm just feeling a little stressed now I guess. That's why I'm blogging. Guess sometimes in life we have to do things alone. Even if we have a million fans supporting us. Even if our best friend is sitting beside us. Even if, well, people are trying their best to make things easier for us. We have to face some things alone.

Well, I guess this is one of those times. Even though I know that my friends are supporting me, I'm the only one who can make myself study. No one is going to force me. No one is going to stuff the information into my head. It's just me, and my books. Yes, I'm grateful to the people who encouraged me tonight. They sure made a world of a difference. But... yes BUT. But the choice of whether I want to study or not still lies with me.

Studying for these two tests aren't easy. 2 chapters of Bio and a chapter of SS. They're all heavy chapters, mind you. But yeah. I must have the mental resilience to mug. I don't love mugging. And i don't want to love it. Studying isn't all there is to life. In the end... well, i guess almost everyone would agree to this... we wouldn't care about all the PHDs or certificates we achieved when we're already on our death bed. Well, at least I wouldn't.

I mean like come on people! The world is hurting! There's a lack of human rights in the Middle East, racial discrimination among mankind all over the world. WARS are being raged, physical, spiritual, and emotional. People are getting raped, children are getting aborted, humans are getting killed by their fellow humans. Who cares about certs at the end of the day? Do you want to leave your mark on this earth or not? Are we just going to be content with our own comfort and survival while others suffer? Or do you want to be the one to touch the lives of people. To reach out and make a difference? The earth needs healing. Who's going to be the one to heal it?

Just like we try our best in our studies... why not try our best to heal the world? The deeds that we do don't have to be great. For it is the little things that make up a great feat. Studies are just one of the many blessings bestowed upon us by God. So of course we must do our best. But if in the end we don't get the best results, it doesn't matter. Whatever the result we get is just another stepping stone to where God wants us to be.

Ahhh... ok... I'm just venting. Need to get back to studying.

LOVE passionately...
LIVE meaningfully...
PRAY fervently...

Posted by Claire at 10:44 PM