Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Lonely...
I've had this feeling often... this feeling of loneliness. I have come to think of it as a friend. Sometimes it comes to sit with me, sometimes it's not that obvious but i can still faintly feel its presence. At times when i feel that i have no one to talk to, it becomes my friend. I take comfort in dwelling in it. It's weird but, sadly, it's true.
We all have friends in this world. Imaginary or not, they're still friends. Some people have more friends than others. Some have better friends than others. Some people do not have friends. There are also those whose friends are only superficial. There are friends that are true. And there are 'friends' who are not.
I daresay that everyone has had a visit from the person called loneliness. At those moments, i feel so alone in the world. At those moments, i feel that life is not worth living. In those times, i feel like taking my life.
But loneliness has a way of making us forget the few precious friends we have in life. They may not be prominent, but they are always there. They may not always make you laugh but they will be there for you when you cry. They don't ask for anything in return and listens to your every word even if they don't agree with them. The thoughts of these people convinces me to let go of all self destructive intentions.
Sometimes i wonder if i'm truly cherished by people. If i didn't exist, would people's life be any different. I guess i just want to matter in this world before i pass away. Even if i die a poor person, i want to die knowing that someone's thinking of me.
Humans all have an inborn desire to matter... don't they?
Appreciate someone and you would have gained a friend.
Show concern and you would keep that friend.
Posted by Claire at 7:20 PM