Saturday, January 3, 2009
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Well, a new year has started. There are lots of things to rejoice about of course. New things. So i'm finally sec 4 this year. Yay! Rulers of the school. Does that mean that the sec 4 batch this year would all score As for our math? Haha, cos we're the rulers! Yeah.
Anyways, i feel that sometimes i aim too high and try to do one too many things on my own. I'm struggling with my spiritual life more than ever now and i wonder if i'm ever going to recover from that faithful downfall in 2006. As people say, what is past is past. There is nothing we can do about it. But i can't seem to get my head out of the past and into the present, let alone to plan for my future. Why? I have absolutely no idea.
Try as i did to focus on the present and future, i simply could not do it. Well, that put my self-esteem down even further. So the ever present questions in my head are:
Will i ever be good enough for the people around me?
Will i ever love God with my whole heart?
Will i ever love myself?
What am i worth?
Posted by Claire at 7:36 PM