Thursday, November 27, 2008
Living
Hey, I've just read someone's post about how our lives in Singapore is so much more pampered than the lives of the children in Batam. Yet, they are happier than we are. That particular post made me think and again... I'm entering my introspective mode again... nvm a little introspection is good for us...
Anyway... The main question in my head is: What am I supposed to live for?
This question is not focusing on my purpose here on Earth but on what I am living for. To me, "the purpose of our life" means how we are going to make an impact on others by living. In contrast, "what I am living for" means the person, God, goal, or dream that I'm living for or living to achieve.
"What am I living for" is in the present tense but I'm not really bothered about that right now. "What I am supposed to be living for" is what is truly bothering me now. Currently, my life is, let's face it, not Christ centered. On top of that, I'm at a loss to what my passion is. I don't know what I like to do. I have not discovered my interest. Hence, putting two and two together, I'm not sure about who I'm supposed to live for anymore. The text book answer is, "God of course." While I also know that that is the right answer, I hesitate as if doubting myself. It may be my darker side giving in or something. Oh, wait, it IS my darker side giving in! I can't believe I didn't realise it till now! So now I've answered my own question: I'm supposed to be living for God!"
Oh man, now another question popped up into my head: "What does living for God entail?"
Okay, by common sense, the first thing that came into my mind was prayer. But that can't be all there is to it. In the homily during the 10.45am mass on the 23rd of November, Father J.P. said something along the lines of the essence of christianity being giving to the needy and basically helping those in need around us. Lifting people up. Is this what it means to live or lives for God? I don't know. But I guess I should just pray about it.
Well, let's not dwell on the same subject for too long a time. Moving on I feel that there are loads of people that we can help or sacrifice our time for out there. If only we ask God to guide us in this path, I'm sure that He will make a way for us to do His will in His own time. Well, that may be the key... to discover what God wants us to do on this Earth, we must be alert to His calling and be obedient in What he tells us to do.
Why is it that some people are "blessed" with more things than others? Is there a reason? I believe that there is a reason for everything that happens. And while God blesses us abundantly, we have to be aware that our actions may cause us to reject God's blessings and hence as a result reject God. Um, I'm not sure if this is right but it is what I think.
So while this is a complicated issue, the solution may be simple in nature. Who knows? God works in mysterious and wondrous ways :)
Posted by Claire at 12:01 AM